Whoa!

(This is possibly TMI for some people as I explore in the blog the joys of being a female. You have been warned.)

So, I know the program is working but my body is in a state of change (pun intended here). Today I was able to identify the "depressed" feeling as PMS and now I know what's next. BUT the program made the usual short temper and snippy attitude go away. Wow! My students are happier for that, even if they didn't know.

What I did discover is that the physical annoyances are being amplified somewhat. The usual feeling of "off" is WAY more noticed now. I have been very dizzy for the past hour or so. Not fun, but in spite of it, I've been able to teach and keep a good mood showing to the world. So, while I'm still feeling the onset of being a female, I am not freaking out.

You know, I'm 55 now and really could be happy without these intrusions in my life every month or so. OTOH, my doctor assures me that this is what is keeping me from not looking my age. I guess vanity is a tradeoff here. What I find really interesting though today is that I am aware of the changes in my body and feel okay about it. Maybe I'm feeling things differently because my body is in a state of healing and moving towards center.

And the more that is happening the happier I've been feeling. And the more confident I feel about who I am now. This is cause for celebration.

Why celebrate? Because for the past few years every single cycle has brought ghosts of the past and the only ghosts I'm feeling are the seasonal ones and the cute ones in store windows. No old tapes. No old anger issues. Just feeling my body without filters from the past. And that my dear reader, is reason to celebrate.